ranting

1 of those times where I feel moody.
hubs and me not talking. today is the 2nd day.
he doesn't think he did anything wrong, neither did I.

rec'd an email from the boss which adds onto my moodiness.
tried retail therapy but it doesn't work.

was feeling so bad tt I very nearly cried in the train on the way home.
why? hopefully when the storm is over, I can look back n think what a trivial matter it was.

now, it felt as I have something pressing in my heart and wanted to cry it out.
makes me wonder which is more painful - emotional pain or physical pain?

New Job...

New job seems ok for now.
Was flooded with assignments the 1st week I joined.
So much for honeymoon period! :P

But so far, I enjoyed the environment here...
nice colleagues to work with.
No need to worry about office polictics.
A refreshing change.

did some Teacher's day card with the girls.
Kady enjoyed herself. She's really into arts...
Vera was just horsing around... enjoying the company I guessed.

of late, it seemed that Vera's super sticky to me.
She wants me to be around her all the time....
if I walked off for abit, she'll come looking for me within 5mins!
Really dunno to be pleased or pissed... LOL...

Onward with another adventure, another opportunity

Have left my ex co after working 4.5years there... one of the longest period of time that I have worked in a company. Seen a lot of colleagues going and coming...
Mixed feelings. Happy with the new adventure that I will be embarking on and yet... I think I will mix my bunch of colleagues.

So now I have about a week's off before I start my new work and am trying to cook for the family. :)

Made Japanese stew the other day.
Surprisingly easy to make.

ingredients
Beef cut into cubes
bonito stock
potatoes cut into cubes/ chunks
carrots cut into cubes/ chunks
sake or white cooking wine
1 onion chopped
pepper
soy sauce
brown sugar

steps
brown the onions then add in beef (marinate with pepper, soy sauce) to brown as well.
add in bonito stock and bring to a boil, then switch to low fire and simmer for about an hour
then add in carrots and potatoes and simmer for about another 30mins till vegs are all soft and meat tender.
Serve with plain rice.

Kady loved it so I might just make it again. :)

Yesterday I made Cashew Nut & Walnut Soup, Stir Fried Pork with OJ and normal stir fried vegs.

Tonight's menu - Five Spice Pork Trotters with Lemongrass, Stir Fried Broccoli with Prawns and Meat patties... :)

Butterfly Kisses...

Who would have thought a Simple Song like Butterfly Kisses would invoke such feelings in me.


Hearing the song, reading the words...
I realised that I never really knew my dad.
Did he loved me?
Does he think of me every now and then?
Can he even remembered that he had a daughter somewhere out there?

The lyrics made me cry...
Pain that stabbed me in my heart that I didn't even knew existed.
I thought I didn't care
I thought that I will do fine
I thought that it doesn't matter
and things are better this way...

Well - I can only think of it this way
'cause I don't think I will ever know if he had loved me
if he had thought of me
rather than to have the cruel truth of knowing
that he hadn't care,
hadn't love,
hadn't matter...
I would prefer to leave it as it is.

I am just thankful that I have a wonderful husband who is everything my own dad wasn't.
A dad who is always there for his girls.

Thank you - Darling!

Here pox, there pox

Caught the chicken pox virus since Monday.
Grew a lot of 'poxes' on my body, back and especially on my scalp!

The ones on my scalp are the most painful.
They are like acne - very swollen and painful.

Tried using ACV (Apple cider vinegar) mixed with water and wipe on the affected areas.
Seemed to be able to help with the itch and help the drying up...

Dh has been wonderful... helping with taking care of the kids and me. :)
Made me cooling drinks, porridge and stuff.

How great it is to have such a wonderful and loving dh!

P1 Update for Kady

This is looong overdue. :P

Kady's school recently organized a Communication session for the P1 parents to let us know the activities/ plans up ahead...

I must say that I am impressed.
Not 'cos that they do the session but cos of all the plans that was lined up for the little P1 kids!
They are organizing outdoor trips to Resort World Sentosa and Universal Studio in the last week of Term 2 and Term 3.
Thereafter - the children need to do a Show and Tell in public so that they can learn to communicate and do a little 'public speaking' per se.

And - they have a studio of sorts that children can try out doing stuff like reporting, DJs, etc.
heck! They even have their own radio station so tt kids can dedicate songs!

And there is plans for them to re-do a section of the school to a Mini Science area where children can learn but science is a 'fun' and creative environment.
They are even going to create an online portal for the kids to log in and learn! (will be ready in March, I think.)

The best part - NO EXAMS this year!!! Instead, the P1 kids will be assessed on their usual work/ small projects.

The classroom sitting is in clusters/ groups. So that they can learn to work as a group.
In their classrooms, they have computers and a mini library!
Kids will get time to be on the computer and they will be teaching them keyboard skills as well.

Updates from the teacher was that Kady is very vocal (i.e. talkative lah!) and confident.
Enjoy arts and PE lessons.
Is the appointed Asst. Group Leader for English, Group Leader for Mandarin and the Art Monitor!

Since Jan, Kady has fought with her classmates twice!
'cos 1 time - someone smack her, and the other time - someone pissed her off.

My idiot brother told her that she shouldn't smack the kid back.
What she should have done was smack the kid, then drag the kid to the teacher and tell the teacher tt the kid smack her!
Good thing she didn't pay notice to my bro! *whew*

Overall - she has been coping well and both english and mandarin teacher said she is quite bright and a fast learner.

The start of a New Year - 2010

Its Kady's 1st day at Primary School today...
Time really flies. Its like she has suddenly just grow overnight and no longer a little baby.

Kady is very independent and brave today.
We dropped her off at the Student Care (which thankfully is within the school compound!)
and stayed with her for like 5mins before asking her if she is okay to be on her own.
She said its fine and that we can go...
Still I lingered around and saw that my independent baby went up to the teacher to asked for some coloring pages to color to entertain herself.
I hope she will be able to do well in school - be it behavioral or studies.
I hope she will like school so that we can have 1 less worry.

Kady - if you are reading this (one day down the road), Be assured that Mummy and Daddy is very proud of you and we Love you so much!

1 wedding, 2 funerals.

It was my younger cousin Vincent's birthday last Sunday...
I didn't attend as I just got back from Shanghai and was sick.
Moreover, the wedding was in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

Less than 24hours later, my granny passed away.
I hope she is no longer suffering where ever she is now.
She had cancer for quite a while...

Today is Sunday.
Another week gone.
I just heard from my brother that 2nd uncle passed away.
Another funeral...

That makes it the 3rd one this year.
Makes me think - life and death is just a thread away.
喜于悲，生于死 - 一限之擦。

Another baby tooth out...

Kady just dropped another of her baby tooth last week.
Only realised that her new teeth are already 1/2 grown out after the baby tooth came out... :P
Her teeth are all growing out pretty soon!

Will be going over to Shanghai to attend the China coat show and getting the meetings ready. It will be a mad rush again. :(

Vera is finally recovering now. PD suspected that she has Influenza A and her fever only broke after 6 days! You can only imagine how tired I was as I have just came back from Suzhou on Friday evening and she was sick on that day.
She still has a cough and running nose but at least no fever.
Hubby was also down. Guess he caught the virus from Vera.

Kady's Graduation

Just wanna share - Yesterday was Kady's graduation concert... they were asked what they wanted to be. Kady said - I want to be a scientist that can save the world from natural disasters. So that everyone will be safe. Am so proud of my girl!

Her class performance was cowboy dance... the costumes was great and her class performance was the one that has the most claps and wolf whistles!

I just came back from Shanghai/ Suzhou on Friday and bought 10 hairy crabs back. We had feast on Friday night....
Vera is also down with fever, cough and cold... very tiring night!

Tonight's Dinner...

Tonight's dinner was pork chops with bacon...
something really simple.
I was lazy so I bought McCormick's Teriyaki Powder Mix marinade for the pork chops.

What I did was to add olive oil, water, white vinegar, oregano, rosemary and freshly squeeze OJ to the ready mix and marinade the pork chops for about 3hours.

Then I pan fried them on both sides (lightly brown), wrap them up with back bacons and grill them. End result - absolutely yummy!!! I used the left over marinade and added chilli sauce, water, button mushroom and brown sugar.

Add in some fresh butterhead lettuce and cherry tomatoes with Chicken and Mushroom soup - Dinner is served!

Yummy... too bad I forgot to take some pics before we eat. :P

Flying off soon....

Leaving for Jinan tommorrow for work...
(Jinan is in Shandong Province)

Heard from my colleagues that it is a very boring place.
In the sense that there is nothing much around to walk or shop for.
Anyways... I'll get to see for myself when I am there soon enough!


Vera has a fever for the past few days.
Brought her to the doc and she said Vera has bacterial infection
(which in way, explains her extremely bad breathe!)
Her fever is finally gone today... hopefully it doesn't come back and she'll recover soon!

Slacking...

I've been slacked. AGAIN.

I can't believe that the last time I updated my blog was 2 month's ago. :P

Quick Updates here now:

@ work

- the company opening in Suzhou went off well in Aug. All the hard work paid off.

- got a Management Award.

@ home

- Vera is walking very well now and is running! She's so cute when she toddlers and runs along... :)

- Kady just dropped her 1st baby tooth @ 5.5yrs... cos her new tooth are already growing.

- made some flowers for her childcare teachers (see below for pics, now very well taken I am afraid as we were in a rush.

been a while....

been a while since I last updated my blog...
been busy as usual...

mom's business is getting from bad to worse.
Seems like she has almost maxed out her credit limits with the banks and they are all chasing her for payment.
Lend her almost all my savings and hopefully she'll be able to tide over this rough period.
The problem is that she still doesn't want to cut her losses and insist on carrying with the business. I really pray and hope that she will either come to her senses soon or that business will pick up SOON!

Had management meetings the past 3 days and its very tiring! While stuck in the meetings, my emails and work are all plying up!

K's CC is close today so here I am at home with the kids.
I think V's molar is coming out as she seems little under the weather with dripping nose.
My left eye is swollen... guessing infection...

Have to travel soon to Suzhou to help settle some HR issues.
haiz... my china colleagues (management level somemore!) are fighting each other.

I think thats enough on my plate for now... sigh....

turning 31...

Just turned 31 recently...
No big celebration...

had a nice breakfast at Ikea with the girls, dh, nephew and SIL.
Then went for a little shopping @ robinsons...

dinner was with my mom and bro at a Jap restaurant in Raffles Town Club.
I had a special birthday cake this... so very different from the rest!
*lol*

We went to Goodwood Park after dinner, bough 20 durian puffs & ta-da!
That's my birthday cake! :)

Its been a long while since I last had the puffs... somehow I found that the standard has dropped.
Maybe I have too high an expectation??

Little V

After I came back from my China Trip, Little Vera has started to walk.
She can walk really fast and steady now.
In fact, we think that at times she wants to run too! :P


Unfortunately, she has also been down with fever, cough, sore throat and cold for the past 1 and 1/2 weeks.
Good thing is that she is now recovering tho' it seemed that she still have a fair bit of phlegm. :S

Y'day when Vera saw me kissing dh on the cheek, she immediately followed suit and kiss me too and with the kissing sound as well! its really cute.
Still brings a smile on my lips now that I think of it. :)

Below is a pic we took y'day...
Is she cute or what? ;P

Some updates...

I've been laxed again!!!! :P

Celebrated Vera's 1st b'day at the Downtown East...
Good fun, great BBQ food (thanks to Ariel, Eva n hubby for helping with the BBQ!) and with even better company - all the makings of a great party!

hubby got me a bag tt I was eyeing the other day - said early b'day pressie...
and later bought me an iphone! *yippee dooodle* and said its my b'day pressie too!
Think No more presents aft ther iphone since it doesn't come cheap. :P

Then all too soon, I had to leave for Shanghai for work.
Now in Suzhou... the weather is great! between 15degrees to about 24 degrees.
Great cooling weather just the way I like it! :)
The flowers are all blooming in Suzhou.
Great vibrant colors all over.
Maple trees are still red... think should be turning green soon, already see some changing colors.

Meetings are packed... tired... missing my bed and most of all - my 3 babies...
Miss their presence, their smell, their voice, their company, everything!
Changed my flight to a midnight flight just so that I can get home earlier...
Can't wait to get home as usual!

V is turning 1 soon!!

How time flies! Seems like such a short time ago when I had just delivered baby V!

And now my little baby is turning 1 in less than a week...
if only she can stay on to be a baby... :P

V is getting smarter and smarter these days...
if she's touching and/ or doing things that she isn't supposed to, she would stop and take a look around her to see if mummy is around...
And if mummy isn't around to scold or smack her little hands, she will continue to do/ touch the stuff... even if there are other adults around telling her not to, she will develop "selective hearing syndrome" and apparently won't be able to hear...

BUT if she hears mummy booming loud voice, she will immediately stop for a while, then immediately crawl to mummy and pretends nothing has happened!
And she's not even 1 yet!

A conversation with K

Had the below conversation on 30 march 2009 with K.
Till now when I recall the conversation, it still brings on a smile. :)

Y'day I had the following conversation with Kady:

K: Mummy! My friend told me tt get Married means can molest each other.
M: Huh?
K: Aiyah. My friend said aft married, then can kissy and molest each other lah!
M: What do you mean by molest each other?
K: Means touch here touch there lah! You dunno ah?
M: .... lost for words....

K: Mummy! So did you and Daddy molest each other?
M: err... why don't you ask Daddy?
K: Daddy! Did you molest Mummy??

its over for more than a week...

Its been slightly over a week since Ye has passed on...
I watched Ye slowly drawing his last breathe then to totally stop breathing.

I watched him lying still in his coffin, every day till he was cremated.
I cried buckets during the 1st few nights.
When I went back to work, everyone said I looked very down and haggard. :(
I felt the same inside. I felt very down too tho' I did try to make an effort to smile more and to hide my pain. But I guessed it still shows.

I am finally getting some sleep. Not sure if its due to pure tiredness after so many consecutive nights of not much sleep. Am down with cold but so is Vera and hubby.

Finally coming to terms that Ye is not here anymore...