Grandpa in Hospital

Heard the news of Grandpa being hospitalized over the weekend when we were in Batam for a short break...

Went to see him in NUH today...
Grandpa looked so frail and small in the hospital bed.
He also looked as if he has lost quite a fair bit of weight.

the 1st thought that came into my mind was that Grandpa won't last long anymore. *sob*
The doc's initial findings/ suspicions was acute leukemia.
Y'day - they drew bone marrow from him.
Grandpa said it was really really painful and they couldn't put him on GA due to his age.

He reminisce the old days with me. How he took care of me when I was but a little girl.
How he stood up for me when I got bullied in school... how he queue with me in the school canteen and got me drinks during my 1st week in school... how he scolded me and also admitted that he was really harsh with me when I was a kid.

He told me that he loved me as his daughter and not as a grandchild. Told me how he stood up to his son when he thought the way he treated me was too much. Grandpa asked me not to hate his son..... I in all honesty - couldn't answer him. I don't know if I still hated my soon to be ex-stepfather. Hate is such a strong word.

I don't think I hate him as much as before. I just can't bring myself to forgive or forget the things he has done or the words he has used. I would love to let it all go... but somehow it doesn't happen as quickly as I had hoped... I can only pray hard that time will heal the wounds.

When Grandpa told me that he loves me as his own daughter, whatever unhappiness/ unfairness that I had felt before melted away. He cried and I cried too....

If the day really comes where he has to go, I pray that his departure would be a painless and smooth one. I prayed that the last journey will happen when he is asleep...

tired out...

Just returned from Shanghai abt 2 weeks ago.... and somehow, I felt tt I'm all tired out...
really no mood to work and can't concentrate... I seriously need a break!!!

While in Shanghai, 1 of the early evening, we went to their Qi Pu Street (Supplier Market) to shop.
Its at the lower end in Shanghai and alot of shops are selling fake goods!
Simon, my colleague got hounded from the 1st floor up till the 4th floor and then down again till the 2nd floor... guessed he's overdressed in his Long sleeve shirt, pants and work shoes! *lol*
We also went to a seafood place on the outskirts with our china colleagues and its a refreshing experience. We get to choose our seafood outside the restaurants (there's a whole stretch of street on both sides selling diff varieties of seafood), we even spotted a stall selling snakes!!! (in chinese, its called 5 step snake... as if bitten by those wild ones, take 5 steps & you'll be dead!).
Food is quite good but the restaurant isn't too honest.... :S

We'll be gg to Batam next week for 4 days with Kady, Sim and his wife.
After much deliberation, decided to leave Vera with the nanny... as I'm afraid she may get food poisoning or tt she may not be able to adapt well... haiz... its not an easy decision. Till now, I'll still rethinking whether I made the right one to leave her behind. :_(


Here are some pics of the girls taken a while ago....

Kady at her trial Ballet class... she's now taking bebe ballet @ Dance Castle.
Teacher Nicole said she's ready to move up to the next class...






Pics taken @ the Henderson Waves.






Pics of the girls after the walk... all tired, sweaty & grumpy! LOL

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Hv not been updating for a while....

Brought the girls to Henderson Wave 1 of the weekends...
Kady enjoyed the little walk but was soon complaining abt the heat and sweat!
dh commented that she's an exact replica of me in this sense - cant stand the heat n the sweat! :P

Last week on children's day - we brought the girls and our nephew to the Bird Park.
Kady enjoyed herself loads! :)

Kady has officially started her Ballet class 2 weeks ago.
After 1 trial and 2 official lessons, she still like the classes load and looked forward to each class on every sat... Hopefully her enthusiasm will continue. :P

Vera is sprouting her 1st baby teeth!!!! 2 at row (lower) just like Kady when she was younger.
Only thing is Vera is sprouting hers abt 1-2mths earlier than Kady.
As I remembered Kady had her 1st teeth at around 7mths.
Vera is now abt 5.5mths coming to 6mths.


Heard some really sad news... someone I know had cancer... stage 2 and is undergoing immediate treatment now.
She's only 22. I really pray hard that she'll be able to pull through this difficult and painful time.
May the Good Lord give her strength!!!