Butterfly Kisses...

Who would have thought a Simple Song like Butterfly Kisses would invoke such feelings in me.


Hearing the song, reading the words...
I realised that I never really knew my dad.
Did he loved me?
Does he think of me every now and then?
Can he even remembered that he had a daughter somewhere out there?

The lyrics made me cry...
Pain that stabbed me in my heart that I didn't even knew existed.
I thought I didn't care
I thought that I will do fine
I thought that it doesn't matter
and things are better this way...

Well - I can only think of it this way
'cause I don't think I will ever know if he had loved me
if he had thought of me
rather than to have the cruel truth of knowing
that he hadn't care,
hadn't love,
hadn't matter...
I would prefer to leave it as it is.

I am just thankful that I have a wonderful husband who is everything my own dad wasn't.
A dad who is always there for his girls.

Thank you - Darling!